Depressed

What I wanna do , what I have been yearning to do is to be a youtuber !!!! I wannna sing , make online videos with my friends !:) I just have thus deep burning passion within me ! I wannnaa buy a camera so desperately . But first , I need to study and finish o's first ... Get a live Eugenia 43 more days to o's 42 more days to birthday . SIGH , #ihavenolife ... I am so so pissed with like people , they know that I have to study and they still drag or ask me out ... Lol especially this junior , she text me 24/7 and like crazy , how am I suppose to text her back ?! So I just gave her number to my sister ... I am so tired oh God , one part of me just wanna Glorify you , the other part of me just tells me to give it up . I must preservere ! For god , for myself , for my family ! YOU MIGHT KEEP THIS GOING ON EUGENIA :(