teachers day :)

Okay , I have no idea I am waking up so early to blog ... But hey today its teachers day ! I wannna really take the time off here to thank you guys for helping me so so so much :) thanks teachers :) I am really motivated to become a teacher next time because of the help and love that has nurtured me to become a better lady :) thanks :) Sigh , btw I didn't blog much yesterday cause I was very angry :( angry at how people take advantage of me just because they are weaker than me . :( sigh #feellikealoser ...

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Oh God I feel so stress about everything ... Just so tired !!!!! Haiz , get alive Eugenia , o's is coming ... Haiz ... JIAYOU Eugenia :(

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Alright , so I have been slacking the whole year ,
O'S is coming I am scared . Fine , I should totally start studying Tmr ...
But Tmr got sushi treat .
SIGH -.-

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I just woke up while taking a nap ... Haiz so tired , after I wake up , I hear like what Joyce Is coming my tuition and stuff then also like brian keep bugging me for like other stuffs ... Walao , is it just me or isit when people wants thing then always pretend to be close to me ? But I know that sha , bunbun and church friends are someone who will treat me right :) don't think so much Eugenia :)

repaid :)

Haiz , you know what I heard ? I heard my classmates gossiping about me in class ... They say that I tells mrs Leong about everything that goes on on Facebook . This is so unfair . I didn't do that . Just because you guys are weaker than me , you resort to tricks so that I can be weaker than you . Well , you are WRONG . I am stronger , I will be stronger . EUGENIA , take it in , forgive and forget . Your purpose in life is to let others know about the love of God . Take it all in , take it in . Just forget this Eugenia , you are stronger , you are more Beautiful , you are more amazing :) WORDS CAN'T BRING ME DOWN . ;) I know you guys don't like Mrs Leong and just using her for biology results . Don't be so selfish guys . Haiz , you will never understand , because you are not matured yett . " so I will live to carry your compassion , to love a world's that is broken , to be your hands and feet . And I will live with a life that I've been given to go beyond religion and see the world be change " I WILL BE PAID IN HEAVEN WHEN I SEE GOD :) HAH! Today I also hang out with shaaaaaaaaa :) I love my good friend :)

breathless

Okay , today I just wanna rant . All about school , all about this stupid role as a chairperson . All about my class , all about school !:( I dislike school , I can't wait to move on . Being a chairperson is so tough ... I just feel like collapsing :( I am so so so so tired alr . I feel like dying ... But I really wanna thank God for my form teacher who keep motivating me to do better :) and I am appreciative of that :) I really love my form teacher :)

:):) your heels so high , you cant even have a good time

Heehehe :) my post before abit weird . Cause now using I touch to post . My whole house connection on low :( hehe :) but today was fun :) I went to ice skate with my lg :) hehe :) I hope that next time I can go ice skate with the person I like :) it would be such a memorable time :):) heheh :) then when I was walking home , I saw a nerd downstairs my house saying all the vulgar and stuff . What's wrong with the new generation ?! -.- oh my ....

SERVICE :)

Today's service was so interesting and helpful :) so i decided to upload it for the benefit of people who were not here :) Service 20/8/11 Conversation : we have a ratio between our encouragements or criticism ! For every 1 encouragements , there is 6 criticism ! We are far quicker to criticize than appreciate . We are at quicker to pull down than push up :( Title : encourage others because we all need some fans ? verse 25 :) Giving = giving our time etc :) no only money !!! ( adding on to them ) If you have Kindness you receive kindness :) When you fill others up , God/others fill you back up !:) Sign of encouragement is breathing . Because having encouragement is as important as breathing Hebrews 10:24-24 Guys always think that : Do I have what it takes ? Girls always think that : Am I special ? HAHAHAHA , so right we can use this questions to encourage each other :) We can be fans that can speak into each other lives . :) Girls ... Don't tear down , build up :) Guys ...encouragement is not for the sissies it's of the man in the house !!!:) It takes man to be humble to lift others up !:) Speak truth to people around you :) John12:34-35 Heart of encouragement is not about being nice ! The heart of encouragement is not about self centered! But others centered ! To see the best in people like Jesus sees the best in you !:) Acts 9:26-28 Barnabas did not write a single word in the bible . Barnabas was the encourager of Paul , who wrote half the new testament .

sighhhh ....

Okay , so today at the while day , I spend my whole time at Candace's grandma's wake . I feel like so weird and stuff ... But really wanna thank Weiling and God for like giving me the courage to do this ... Actually when I reached the place , I wanted to back out . But we just prayed before we went in and I felt so much better :) sigh ... It was just awkward and more awkward !!! LOL I feel so tired ... It's the end of the week and I just wanna take time off To just thank God for friends an the encouragement that they have given me :) everyone got higher than me for Chinese o's ... But I learn to be grateful with what I have ... I have given my very best . There's nothing that I can do ... But to just move on with life ... Thank God for giving me the chance to even get a B3 :) so glad :) at least if I am not glad I am trying to :)

When expectations are not met ...

Wah I damn sad today leh ...
I got B3 for Chinese . What the he'll am I gonna freaking do with a 3 ?!
Everyone in my class was like chilling and don't care ...
Sigh . But Chinese mean so much to me .
I FEEEL like a freaking failure .
I kept trying to make myself FEEEL better .
But I can't .
I am sure I don't wanna retake .
I am just tired ...
I am just sad ....
Just don't wanna talk to anyone .
SIGH ... my friend is like aiya get f9 okay lor .
Heck care la ....
Sigh . Oh God , I am so so sad :(
I just keep trying to stay positive to myself and my friends .
BUT I JUST WANNNA BE SAD AND CRY OVER 'spilled milk' ....

Weird girl , seems like a dream

Today , I girl confessed to me .
I feeel so so so so like pissed .
Why ?! Why me ?!
I am straight , I love him and God ...
Sigh .
When you were rejected by another girl ,
I wanted to cheer you up and bring you back to God .
When you were angry at me even though I never do anything much ,
I still try to cheer you up so that you will not FEEEL so useless .
Sigh , I guess you just had the misconceptions ...
I don't like girls ...
Sigh . I wanna scream and shout .
haiz .....
When this went on today ,he was just on my mind .
Like I just wanted to talk to him :):)

here in my life <3

I understand how's life for you . Lifes tough , you are at another place and I am in another place . How I wish that you are here right now .. I really miss the shared memories :) Hehe :) Oh I wanna thank you for helping me pass my compo !:) I've been wanting to tell you that :) Hehe :) Compo title was : memories :) I just feel so blessed to have you in my life . I really really wanna thank God for bringing you in my life /)

sigh

I wanna sleep :(

It's not about the money !

It's such a wonderful day :)
I can't believe the I was so crazy ytd that I confessed to the guy I like !
Oh my , I am really crazy .
But it was fun being crazy .
Just can't wait to go out with him .
In school , I was like sleeping and smiling to myself :)
And I think that it was cool with the aces day dance and I was so onto it .
Oh wait , I don't even know if I am talking anything that is making sense :(
Cause I am really really tired :(

yes i said it , i siad it , i said it cause i care :)

Hahaha :) today (13/8/11) There was grad day photoday taking :) and I was wearing a white dress . HAHAHAH THIS IS GONNA BE ONE OF THE LAST TIME I WILL REALLY WEAR A DRESS . cause it's so hard to walk in :( hahahah but crazy people says that I look Nice . Hahahah even a guy tried to hit on me . so paiseh . I just told him I like a guy :) a very special guy :) Ahhaha then after service there was shepherd meet :) Hahaha and I was so blessed that I wasn't a shepherd :) because I was able to talk to others :) And one person that I really talked to was JEREMY CHIA :) We were just talking and laughing :) hahahah is like I have no idea who do guys even bother listening to me , when there is so Many people who despises me and can't wait to shut my lips up . I really appreciate like people like that !:) hahahah ;) but there I still someone else in my heart that will take time to talk to me on Facebook chat whenever I am down or stuff . No matter how busy with his homework , he would still put in the effort to talk to me <3 he will always be in my heart , from last year . My heart will never waver . Once I like a guy , I will like him till the end . It don't matter if he likes me Anot . :) I reallllly really like him <3

Stop for a minute and pray :)

Just now , my friend told me that she have a high possibility of getting into jail with her bf . And I just feel so shocked yet like worried for her :( Someone that is so strong , that I admire is gonna get into trouble . All she did was to help her friend to get out of bullying . OH GOD , please bless her X.X And if there's anyone reading this , stop here for a minute and make a small prayer :) I love you :)

:D:D:D oh happy day happy day ~~~

Oh WOW ! This is another happy day that God has given USSSS!!!!~~~
Today was actually another boring day D;
But after school , i went to evax with Weiling and it was so fruitful !
HAhahaha the sec 2 that we evax on was so fierce ...
But the sec 1s were nice and funny :D
We even managed to evax on my ex schoolmate sister !
That was sooooo awesome !:D
HAHAHAHAh:D
Then after the time of evaxing , we went to the library and tried to do some homework :D
Homework ah , it was okay lor , we even sneak KOI in :D
SO COOL RIGHT ?:D


Then at 6.30 i had tuition .
I told my friend that i will be taking bus to my house and walk to Tiong for tuition .
But I also told her that i will be like quite late .
I cant remember it i told her to go by herself first .D:
Sadly , i think my phone got problem , not only the message cannot send through ,I FELL ASLEEP ON THE BUS !
Then i overslept and pass my stop ....
How unlucky ! So i ran and ran to tuition .
and once i Touch down to tuition centre , i texted her and told her i reach alr .
Then obviously i got like ranted at and she didnt wanna go tuition ...
Sigh , i cant blame her but I was just so flared.
I only had 2 buiscuits for the whole day and i was like dying .

I got a feeling that i am just being used to be her 'security'
Like follow her here and there .
It makes me feeel like a DOG .
Tomorrow she still ask me to go with her MOE or something.
So grumpy , so upset D;
Haiz.... I pray that tomorrow would be a much more awesomee-er day :D
I love you God !

Its a long long journeyy..

Sometimes it feels no one understands
I dont even know why i do the things i do
when pride builds me up till i can sing my song
will you break down these walls and hold me through~

Hehe , i am sick and tired of being not to seek understanding from people .
Is like 'friends' they say that they understand you , and how they have caught your back .
But when we are fighting , you are just merely a bitch to her .
Sigh , sometimes i just wanna tell my friends how much i understand them and stuff .
But i know that , they will think that these are words to 'cheer them up'
Sometimes i just want to tell them things from the bottom of my heart , but they think that i am just another stupid woman that wants to get in their way ...
If this is what they want , i got nothing to say .
Why are people so insecure ?
Why am i insecure ?
I am gonna try to find security through Christ !
Jiayou Eugenia Cozetteae Chan :D:D

You are my freedom
Jesus your the reason
I am kneeing again by your throne
Where would i be without you
Here in my life
Here in my life?

Turn It Around :D

This is the song that often makes me wanna cheer and sing out loud for God :D
SO EXCITED!
I CANT WAIT TO DO MORE FOR GOD:D:D
i am also reminded today that i should never doubt God in what i do , when you start doubting in God , thats when the relationship with God starts to go downhill.
I wanna have faith in Him and do what he ask me to :D

faithful and fruitful LG :)

This is what I learn today :)

9/8/11 lifegroup :)

Title: faithful to the end Faithfulness doesn't mean that we will last till to the end unless we are faithful in the right things :)
When we are faithful to God , God will also be faithful to us :)
Deuteronomy 34:10-12
Because moses was faithful to God , God gave him the power to do what he had called him to do :)

1) faithful to God more than GOD's goal :)
Exodus 33:2-3
Often in life , we are interested in completing GOD's aim than on theirr relationship with God :(
But moses was more interested in God than God's goal
Exodus 33:15
If we try to be the fastest in complete GOD's aim , we might not be doing well cause we do not stop to hear GOD's word :(

2) faithfully obedient to God more than just obedient
Faithfulness is a wonderful thing , but if we place it wrongly , it will not please God.
We must always stop and listen to God , or we will do stuff that don't please God .

3) faithful consistently rather than sporadically Spontaneously
1 Samuel 13:8-14
God has told king to wait .
But the king was impatient , do he didn't obey God :(
Are we completely obedient to GOD's word ? Or just half half ?
If God tells us to do impossible stuffs or like ridiculous stuff , will you be faithful and do it ?
Exodus 39:32,42-43
god blessed his people through Moses :)
2 Timothy 4:7
This is when you have completed the race :)

4) faithful for the long run other than the short run
He was faithful for the short run
2 chronicles 26:16
Because of his pride he was good to God before he became like great .
Deuteronomy 32:49-52
Deuteronomy 34:1-5
Moses didnt question god.
Often in life , we don't let God drive us where to Go :(
Sometimes we don't trust God , when god ask us to do things out of our comfort zone :(

5) faithfully fruitful rather than to maintain :)
Must be faithful to be fruitful !
We must grow .
We can be strong .
One talent, if you are faithful , you have two :)
Matthew 25:19-27
This shows that we must not just maintain but learn to multiply it :)
Evax , grow more disciple for god
Exodus 18:24-26
Sometimes we should listen to advice and be humble in order to improve :)
Aim for excellence :)
Can I climb another mountain :)

6) faithful to care rather than use
People are human.
Are we faithful to care for people or do we just want to quickly achieve GOD's aim ?Encouraging through tough times .
See each other to the end of the race.
Exodus 14:13-14

7) faithful to pass the baton
Faithful to god and multiply the things that god has given us .
If we have that but if we do not pass the baton on , many people would not be saved and would not know about god .
Numbers 27:22-23
If you fail to pass on the baton , you fail to obey god .
Cause you break the commandment ...


HAHAHAHA TODAY WAS SUCH AN AWESOME DAY :) me and welling even tried to include a monkey in a 'accepted' publicity video :) so happy :)

So SO BLESSED :D

Yesterday I fought with Joyce and it was a disaster ...
Like I don't understand her and she doesn't understand me .
Like a magnet , we repel .
We need a listener , but we can never replace each other as a listener .
I felt so sad when she just so self pity .
I felt so sad when she seems like no one care for her .
I feel so sad when I care for her and she just takes it for granted and don't give a damn .

But blessings came soon after that :)
I talked to huiying and bunchana , they are such awesome friends :)
They just gave me reassurance and thy make me feel so glad , I just keep praying as I seek from more assurance from God.
I just feel so blessed :)
I know I am loved by the king , and it makes my heart want to sing :)

SO pissed

I am so tired so freaking hungry .
Today I went out with meihua and plus tuition .
So tired . And when I came home , I was looking forward to food .
Guess what , my family left me leftovers .
I was so pisses that I feel like crying .
So so so so disappointed and angry.
He was online .
I really wanted to talk to him .
But I didn't want him to feel affected cause of me :( I really really love him :(

PHOTODAY SATURDAY :)

Next sat is phototaking day :)
Oh wow ! HOW SHOULD I FEEL ?!
I feel damn ugly compared to so many other people :(
Ahhahaha all lesbians out there should get excited on next saturay :) not me :(
Sigh . Confirm got people laugh at me and say that I am ugly .
Sigh , I have got enough of people who tries to break me down .
I PRAY THAT NO ONE WILL LAUGH AT ME :(
I love him :) I think he will be the only one who will accept me for who I am :(

Drained , yet overjoyed :)

Today I am uploading an image a lollipop :)
Because I feel that today is an awesome yet draining day <3
I just wanna thank God for making me able to do my Chem :)
so overjoyed :)
While others say that the paper was hard , I found It easy :)
thanks God :)
I am really so drained alr at the end of the week :)
But all I think about is him .
I think I should get him off my mind .
He is worth my love .
But he is not worth failing subjects for !
Because I wanna glorify God with my studies :) God please bless me :(

i am lazyyyyyy ;)

" Today I don't feel like doing anything .
I just want to lay in my bed ...
Dont feel like picking up the phone , So leave a message at the tone "

WAH I REALLY FEEEL VERY VERY LAZY TODAY !
I was trying not to sing the song so loud during exams .
But it was quite fail cause I still hum it out loud .
Exam was alright today and tomorrow will be fine too :)
THANKS GOD ! for helping me so much .
I just don't wanna take back my results , I didn't not glorify God and I am ashamed of it .
Sigh .
O'level Chinese results is releasing on next Friday .
I am excited yet so freaking scarred !!!!!
I wanna take back , but I don't wanna see myself getting a B3 and below :(
I want A1-2 :):) hehe ;)
I believe that I will get A1-2 because I had put in the effort for it :)
I had really tried my best !
And I hope that God will do His rest by helping me too :)
I LOVE YOU GOD :) and mr bunny :)

wonderful day :)

Today is just another wonderful day .
Just wanna keep declaring how much I love him and like watched hell kitchen for the whole day .
I really like it :):)
Heehe, i know my post is short and how much i wanna create tumblr .
But there is somedays that i really wanna post all my feelings out :D

A little update :)

I talked to him today .
Hmmm let's just say I was quite happy .
HAHAH then he told me to go and study .
Which I felt abit sad but still I know that he is doing this for the best of me .
I hope that I won't be so tired .
GOD I TRIED , please help me to do my best to glorify you :(