bad experience with PSB acdemy 'KIDS'

Today was acutally a enjoyable day for me , until the time when I have decided to go have lunch at tiong subway and to study there . I guess I have made the wrong choice because when I was about to go study , this group of students around the age of 18-20 walked into subway . They were so arrogant , so so proud . A guy from the group walked in front of this man who was eating halfway and shouted through subway " EH GOT SEAT HERE , THIS GUY EAT FINISH ALR !" the poor guy who was just coming here for lunch was forced to leave just so that they could sit there . As they sat down , they started talking and making alot alot of noise . It was driving me insane . I could not stand the noise anymore , so I decided to cover my ears . But what made me fuming mad was that a girl who had the appearance of a guy started laughing and pointing at my face and everyone else followed . What is so funny , I just want to study . They even talk louder just so that I could leave subway . I tolerated for another hour as they laughed and laughed . I was trying to concentrate and was trying not to doze off . But they continue blabbering about weird and sick stuffs . At last I packed my bag and leave . I have decided to just go home and sleep which was so much better than trying to study . Today i am so angry that i dont feeel like studying anymore . Tomorrow i have my geog paper , but i dont care alr . This was such an unpleasant day making me spoil my mood , i am disgraced with the people living in Singapore . How I wish that I am not a Singaporean .. Sigh ...

SHOUT SCREAM RUN CRY :(

I don't know what's gotten into me today , just feeel so stresses out for Tmr's exam . I am not ready , or let's just say I am never ready . I shouted at my sister today . Cause I was so so SO STRESS THAT I WANT TO BLAST OUT ... really hope that I can clam down . Keep the faith , finish this race Eugenia .

Quiety time :)

As I was doing my quiet time , it tells me that no matter what happen , don't give up on people that matters to God . They are equally important as those possessions , from now on , no matter how tough , how scary it is , Eugenia chan , me , Is gonna let God do his work through me . People matters to God , if Abram can do it , why can't I ? I am gonna continue to keep the faith and smile as I go through this tough journey . You know , I wanted to give up on the person that I was sowing on for 2 months . She was quite irritating that I just fought with her asking her to get away from my life . I guess that I need to start getting her back now , I am encouraged . I will run this race , to glorify God .

A blessing in disguise

Today , it was school like any other day . But I feel so stresss , not over studies . But over this blessing that I don't know whether to accept this blessing Anot ... My teacher paid for my prom , and my prom is not cheap leh ! It's 75 bucks !!!:( It's so much ! I really want to thank God for her :) but I won't accept this .

Hmmm I am not sure what to name it , but if you want to give a song a name , you may just tell me ;) I might be doing a cover of this song on YouTube soon ;) stay tuned !!!:)

What is love , I don't understand ...
What is love , it's the pain that he beared !
People told me not to believe in him !
But I want to , but I want to ...

I want to love You with all my heart !
It Is you that I am here right now:)
Cause you mean EVERYTHING to me ,
Nothing can separate us now !

Even though time is tough ,
Even though roads are rough ,
But nothing can break us up ,
Because of you , Jesus :)

I want to love You with all my heart !
It Is you that I am here right now:)
Cause you mean EVERYTHING to me ,
Nothing can separate us now !

I am tired , so weary .
But Lord I never gave up!
I want to share the love of Yours
For you have saved us all :)

I want to love You with all my heart !
It Is you that I am here right now:)
Cause you mean EVERYTHING to me ,
Nothing can separate us now !

Cause you mean EVERYTHING to me ,
Nothing can separate us now !

Ask and you shall recieve , seek and you will Find :)

My dad took a knife and nearly killed my mum yesterday . He even wanted to divorce with her . But right , I should be sad or depress ... But what I actually feel is so calm . I know that God has a plan and that he is in control , I know my dad and mom love me like how I love them :) Today is my Chinese birthday , I didn't really care cause this birthday means nothing to me ... But today seems to be like a great blessing :) the greatest blessing that I can ever RECIEVE :) my mum got my dad to buy me a cake :) then my mum cook noodles with 2 eggs for me :) Lastly , she even gave me 75 bucks to go to prom even though she had no money . This is what I call the power of love . Everyone seems to be so supportive of me , EVEN GOD ! as I read the bible today , God just told me that he is there whenever I need him ! And that just warms my lil heart !:) he said ask and you shall RECIEVE , seek and you shall FIND ! I am so blessed :) it is joy overflowing :) Okay I am gonna share the song that I composed yesterday when I was weary . Please do not judge me because this is what I really want to say , right in my heart .. I will write the lyrics in the next post :) tune in :)

LOST

I haven been posting for a week alr i guess .
I AM SO TIRED !
I want to study , yet , i am not motivated to .
I just do papers and papers .
I think i am going crazy ?
I cant wait for O's to end , thats when the new life begins .
SIGH , should i go for private diploma + degree together ?
LOL. I feel that i am sec 1 , oh wells...

Depressed

What I wanna do , what I have been yearning to do is to be a youtuber !!!! I wannna sing , make online videos with my friends !:) I just have thus deep burning passion within me ! I wannnaa buy a camera so desperately . But first , I need to study and finish o's first ... Get a live Eugenia 43 more days to o's 42 more days to birthday . SIGH , #ihavenolife ... I am so so pissed with like people , they know that I have to study and they still drag or ask me out ... Lol especially this junior , she text me 24/7 and like crazy , how am I suppose to text her back ?! So I just gave her number to my sister ... I am so tired oh God , one part of me just wanna Glorify you , the other part of me just tells me to give it up . I must preservere ! For god , for myself , for my family ! YOU MIGHT KEEP THIS GOING ON EUGENIA :(

starstrucked :)

I dreamt about bunchana again , it has been the 2nd time alr :) haha I dreamt that he came to Singapore :) hehe then I keep smiling non stop :):) l hope that the dream will never end ...