I wanna be blown away , i wanna be swept of my feet .
I wanna make it hard for me to breathe .
I wanna be lost in love , I wanna be a dream come true :)
I really wanna be with you :(
This is about my walk with MY GOD:D
Sunday, July 31, 2011
Revival of my blog :) nom nom :)
Okay today I am going to revive my blog , at least for a while .
Life has been all so unexpected .
Blessings has become more and more exciting to share and how God had really blessed me through the week .
Sometimes , I wonder why I do not open up my eyes to see the goodness around me ?
Okay , today I just wannna say alot of my secrets within me today .
Something that people might know but not all !
Hmmm I've been one of the luckiest girl in the world .
To have God , fanily , friends and lastly , this amazing guy that I love .
Today , I just wanna talk about my love for him and how I wished he would be able to know it :)
Okay , so firstly ,I like this guy from my church last year from before my birthday .
Approximately around September and so on :)
His name is _________ .
He is a normal yet extraordinary guy .
I could see his burning passion within for God everytime I talk to him .
And that strengthens me alot , alot , alot .
He is like a brother to me , the way he holds me an protects me .
It just makes me feel like I am in heaven .
But I know and I can feel that we are way more than that .
I really really like him .
And being able to talk about him , or with him had already been on a part of my life .
He has been in Thailand for about 256 days already .
But yet my feelings for him grew stronger an stronger each day.
He is the one that I would treasure forever .
Yesterday , he asked me , who do I like ?
HOW I WISHED I COULD TELL HIM THAT THE PERSON I LOVED WAS HIM .
But , I knew that he might not like me back and he might like other girls .
So I told him that I like another guy .
This was all a fake , I just wanted him to move on and fall in love with other girls and don't let me be a burden to him .
I know he treats me like a sister , and I couldnt ask for more .
He might be the whole world to me .
But I know it's all so young and this is just stupidity .
I am just a kid who hasn't seen the world yet .
But right now , he is everything to me .
How I wish , that I could just call out to his name and see how he is so happy in his life .
I want him to be happy .
I wanna give up everything for him .
I wanna look at him from the corner of the world .
I want him to love me back .
I know I am selfish to wanting him to like me back .
But I can't help it .
I mean who really wants to like guys and don't want them to like them back?
I haven been saying that I wanna like guys but I don't want them to like me back .
This is stupid because I am just trying to put on a strong front so that I wouldn't cry so badly
I really really love you and I will never let you go , I love you from the bottom of my tiny heart ...
Life has been all so unexpected .
Blessings has become more and more exciting to share and how God had really blessed me through the week .
Sometimes , I wonder why I do not open up my eyes to see the goodness around me ?
Okay , today I just wannna say alot of my secrets within me today .
Something that people might know but not all !
Hmmm I've been one of the luckiest girl in the world .
To have God , fanily , friends and lastly , this amazing guy that I love .
Today , I just wanna talk about my love for him and how I wished he would be able to know it :)
Okay , so firstly ,
Approximately around September and so on :)
His name is _________ .
He is a normal yet extraordinary guy .
I could see his burning passion within for God everytime I talk to him .
And that strengthens me alot , alot , alot .
He is like a brother to me , the way he holds me an protects me .
It just makes me feel like I am in heaven .
But I know and I can feel that we are way more than that .
I really really like him .
And being able to talk about him , or with him had already been on a part of my life .
But yet my feelings for him grew stronger an stronger each day.
He is the one that I would treasure forever .
Yesterday , he asked me , who do I like ?
HOW I WISHED I COULD TELL HIM THAT THE PERSON I LOVED WAS HIM .
But , I knew that he might not like me back and he might like other girls .
So I told him that I like another guy .
This was all a fake , I just wanted him to move on and fall in love with other girls and don't let me be a burden to him .
I know he treats me like a sister , and I couldnt ask for more .
He might be the whole world to me .
But I know it's all so young and this is just stupidity .
I am just a kid who hasn't seen the world yet .
But right now , he is everything to me .
How I wish , that I could just call out to his name and see how he is so happy in his life .
I want him to be happy .
I wanna give up everything for him .
I wanna look at him from the corner of the world .
I want him to love me back .
I know I am selfish to wanting him to like me back .
But I can't help it .
I mean who really wants to like guys and don't want them to like them back?
I haven been saying that I wanna like guys but I don't want them to like me back .
This is stupid because I am just trying to put on a strong front so that I wouldn't cry so badly
I really really love you and I will never let you go , I love you from the bottom of my tiny heart ...
Revival of a new me , Eugenia Cozetteae Chan :)
Yesterday was quite a normal day to any other person . But I wanna share my experience about this amazing day :) today I went for hope conference , I was actually going for it with an unwilling heart . And thinking about how I can actually do something more 'constructive' like studying than going for this event in my church . When hope conference start , there was praise and worship . There was this song that I love thy started playing , I started to sing loudly to the lyrics and feeling so good about it . Then there was this sentence that was flashed 'Jesus open my eyes to the work of your hands'. At that point of time , I was like why have I been stupid ? Why did I not open my eyes to what You have created ,(my friends that I didn't really like) and I was just treating like they were thrash , for so long . This made me motivated to talk to them and really try my best to treasure them more .
Next , after the break there were interviews with people . They were not ordinary people , but they are people who had grown so much more just by being faithful and following God in what ever they do . Then suddenly I turn to my LGL and said " I have no idea what does God have for me in future , because it has been a very long time that I had talk to God " , right after that , I started breaking down and cry out to God . I just felt so guilty and ashamed for who I really was than God showed me an image , it was an image of a 'sand timer' turning over and over again when the sand reach the end . Like I guess God was trying to tell me that he forgives me and that the sand timer turning shows that the old has gone and I can start to work harder for the new future with him . This experience has really made me wanna do so much more for God . And to start out I want to start planning out my time wisely so that I will be able to start going for lg . Right now I feel so drained that I wanna sleep ;(
Next , after the break there were interviews with people . They were not ordinary people , but they are people who had grown so much more just by being faithful and following God in what ever they do . Then suddenly I turn to my LGL and said " I have no idea what does God have for me in future , because it has been a very long time that I had talk to God " , right after that , I started breaking down and cry out to God . I just felt so guilty and ashamed for who I really was than God showed me an image , it was an image of a 'sand timer' turning over and over again when the sand reach the end . Like I guess God was trying to tell me that he forgives me and that the sand timer turning shows that the old has gone and I can start to work harder for the new future with him . This experience has really made me wanna do so much more for God . And to start out I want to start planning out my time wisely so that I will be able to start going for lg . Right now I feel so drained that I wanna sleep ;(
Subscribe to:
Comments (Atom)