Rain or storm , I will perservere :)

Lawls ,it seem to be a long time that I didn't blog .:(
Hahah I have been busy with cca after school everyday .
Hahah , cca everyday ? Crazy right ?
But I love my cca , choir :)
Hahah , today , the choir went up to stage and performed don't stop believing with the dance steps .
I did my best :)
When I just went up to the stage , I saw a couple of teachers giving me the disgusted look :(
Idk if I just look like some shit or what la .

I saw you staring at me and cross your hands and rolled your eyes .
I got a feeling that monday you will call me out .
I am waiting to face to man .
I hve been waiting for that day to come where I can really really really express my feelings to you .
Even though you are a teacher that I am not very fond of , I am trying to accept you .
But I hope that you will accept me too .
I know I quit softball without even telling you .
I know it's my wrong , but if I told you , will you scold me ?
You would for sure ...
What if you have to attend this cca after school almost everyday when you are the outcast ...
No one want to choose you because you are fat , ugly , a freak ?
Even though I go all out to talk to people and make friends , do they care ?
You don't understand what I am feeling now .
The deep hurt within me .
You don't understand because you are just a ordinary teacher .
When I go for choir , I found joy , united people with one heart , to sing beautifully .
In softball , I am a piece of shit compared to others.
When in choir , I am myself . My true self .
I talk , laugh and hve fun .
I don't understand why people discriminate me just because I am some fat and ugly shit in your eyes .
I just want to be normal ...

Lord , let it rain , let it pour down .
I am prepared to carry an umbrella with you .
I will never let the rain get over me .
I will get over the rain !
God get over this storm with me !:)